Once you become a mom…….even if you lose your self one day and find your self the next you are and will always be a mom……no matter how much you need that break from that day-to-day life…….and never will there be anything better than being a mom….Being a mom is more than making lunches playing games or teaching them right from wrong or even tucking them in at night …..it’s also about the feelings they can inspire in you from pulling your hair out feelings to catch your breath ah-ha! moments…..boy do I love those moments 🙂 they are the best aren’t they …lol
there are sooo many things children can do to your body and I’m not just talking about stretch marks….lol…and all of them wonderful in their own way all because they wrap their tiny hand around your finger that first time…..it’s amazing how you forget everything else after that moment. being a mom is all about those moments.
One of my most memorial pull your hair and can’t breathe moments was my first-born first day of school….I remember standing at the bus stop and sending her off for that first time and thinking this is it my baby is all grown up …haha… what a thought at the ripe old age of 4 1/2 all grown up…she was so excited she couldn’t wait to start school and to this day she was the most excited out of the 3 of my children.
I remember the tears rolling down my cheeks and her father making fun of me because all I could think about was my fears of her not being on the bus at the end of the day …..I remember having nightmares for a week before school started and in my dream I’m standing there and the doors of the bus open and all the children come off the bus but not my daughter ……I think that for me it was a heart stopping feeling these fears of her not getting off that bus….but I know that they are only the irrational fears of a first time mom so I calm down and start my day at work…..
At the end of the day I stand at the bus stop waiting and there it is that beautiful yellow school bus …and I’m standing there with the video camera ….the doors open …..the kids start piling out ……and there it is My Daughter is NOT on the bus…..my head starts spinning I can’t breathe and all rational thought goes out the window …lol my brain completely stops working now I live in a very small town the bus driver tells me to get on the bus and he will take me back to the school …so I hop on !!!! duh!!! …..for future reference if this ever happens to you DO NOT GET ON THE BUS ……drive yourself it will be much quicker…..the bus driver still had to make the rest of his stops…you know so the rest of those parents out there don’t have heart attacks because their children didn’t come home…lol
remember I lost my mind …haha…..as we pull up to my child’s school I see standing outside the front doors my daughters teacher and there holding her hand is my beautiful little girl….i had never seen such a beautiful sight as the bus driver opens the doors and I step down off the bus I held out my arms with tears rolling down my cheeks and my all grown up little girl runs into my arms and she look at me and says
Mommy YOU get to ride the bus too!!!
and I started laughing so hard…..little did she know the fear I had just gone through all because the school couldn’t remember what bus to put her on….. but to my little girl it was just the coolest thing that her mommy came on the bus to pick her up from school …..
Today I had another one of those moments the kind that I will remember every detail of.
I watched my son he is my middle child (and yes the middle child syndrome is true..lol) in his last indoor soccer game (I live in the Northwest Territories so indoor soccer is what we play for most of the year). I watched on the edge of my seat by the way…..one of the most intense games of the season I thought about how they played back in the beginning and admired how they have really grown as a team….I was proud to watch my son the way he handled him self with every game lost and every game won…..I was impressed by the maturity level of these 9-11 yr olds….they didn’t brag or gloat about the win just so they wouldn’t make the other team feel bad and when they were done my son comes to me and says I don’t think we should have won but the ref wouldn’t listen to us I think the goalie had the ball…..right at that moment was my wow!! moment my son who by the way is very competitive and wont play board games because he hates to lose and if he doesn’t get to play his way will end the game….has just told me that HE doesn’t think that they should have won that the game (which was in overtime) was not over he feels like the other team was cheated out of their shot at the Bronze medal (they were playing for 3rd place)….so there it is…. my wow!! moment… he really gets it !!!!
I am MOM hear me roar…haha……yes these moments that’s what it’s all about.