I was sitting quietly one day looking out the window and I was thinking about silence which I was enjoying at that particular moment and this brought me to thinking about why there is silence which brought me to thinking about what the person sitting quietly beside me was thinking about ….
I then proceeded to ask what it was they were thinking of ?….the answer I got was Nothing???…..really?… Nothing?…..I have gotten this answer many times over the years mainly from my partner …..what I don’t get…. is how do you think of nothing how does that happen and if they can think of nothing… why can’t I ?
when I am not talking I am thinking…..thats just how I am…..all the time!!!….. it never shut’s off this thinking thing. something is always going through my head whether its something big or small !!!!……important or silly….its still thinking…..at least that’s what I thought ?…….I think so much that I even have to think my self to sleep …haha….ok I know it’s weird but hey if I am not completely exhausted the breaks just don’t work!
I can think of an orange and my thinking will make its way to whether I rememberd to shut the shredder off at work yesterday to what the temperature will be tomorrow….lol…..why??? well because one thing always leads to another with me…. it just never ends…. never!!!…. one thing always roll’s into another …sometimes I would love to record one of my conversations with the girls at work …..lol
I thought at one time that if I listened to music I would then be too busy concentrating on what I am listening to, to be able to think of anything else…..boy was I wrong….but I’ll let you in on a little secret I do my best thinking when I’m listening to music…..who would have thought that, right! …..I put in my headphones and I drown out the rest of the world and away I go ….lol….
so now that I have explained how my mind works …isn’t this how everyone’s mind works ??? …..and if so how can you be thinking about nothing then?
Ok well I always figured it was because whoever I was asking didn’t want to share whatever it was they were thinking …that’s what I always thought!!…….its what I do (the thinking thing remember it never stop’s in here!!..) so after I ask and I get the answer “nothing” and I know very well the other person is thinking something you can always see the thought process in the other persons eyes …I wonder if others notice this ? huh or am I just observant …nah others must see how your eyes move when you think…lol…
It then makes me wonder WHY???….why don’t they want to share …what are they hiding ?…or I think why are they too embarrassed to tell me what they are thinking?…do they think I would judge them?….
see how the thinking thing works ……haha….it is really exhausting in here.
so if it’s because you don’t want to share then why are you spending time with me if you don’t want to share what your thinking ….I mean really if I wasn’t interested I never would have asked in the first place…right???…..
I will confess to having done the very same thing and I may even do it again(depending on what my thoughts are) but I now say what is on my mind if I’m asked no matter how silly it may be or sound….and I must say it has brought some funny looks from my partner, one particular time he asked and I was thinking about something quite silly…..lol…but if you really don’t want to know then DON’T ASK…lol
so my partner just walked in and asked what I’m doing and I told him I was writing about thinking …….he said Wow …that’s a weird topic??… with his funny look on his face……guess it’s one of those moments …haha
so I do filter what I say depending on who I am talking to because…..well because not EVERYTHING need to be shared with everyone …..but then you may just get it’s just not proper to share right now…lol….you would think that with all this thinking I would have no problems writing …..you would think!!!
so don’t ask if you don’t want to know ……and for those of you who really do think of nothing pleeeeesssseeee tell me how you do it !!!!!…..because I would love to think of nothing just once …..lol…because as my partner says …my brain must hurt with all this thinking…..and it could use a break …haha
and this is how My Life Becomes Me 🙂