Does silence make you uncomfortable?

This is something that I think about sometimes when I’m with others I think is the silence you hear making you feel uncomfortable ?

I think it would all depend on the situation don’t you think?
Do you feel like you need to fill the silence ….I have been feeling like this recently and I don’t like it .. I have never felt uncomfortable in the silence before but I now feel like I need to fill that silence that I not so long ago enjoyed ….but I think the only reason People feel the need to fill that silence is because it needs to be filled with something that need to be said and those involved don’t want to say what needs to be said…Hmmm… Maybe you should say what needs to be said and the silence will be gone?

But that’s just what I think. ūüôā

I have always loved Being able to sit and do what ever with others and not have to talk… but to let each do his/her own thing and just enjoy being in the others company….
Maybe I enjoy the silence because I live in a very loud world?

Maybe some people are uncomfortable with the silence because they don’t know how to come out of their shell And don’t know what to say.

I like to listen to music ALL the time so maybe I am more uncomfortable with silence then I thought ….hmmm I’ll have to think about that one. ūüôā
I guess this is just some food for thought….

And this is how Life Becomes Me.


Posted by on December 6, 2011 in life


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A Glance of what’s to come

When you see a small glance of something great in someone close to you you wait for them to blossom.
As a parent I see these little glimpses every day in my 3 children.
But every once in a while you get a burst of greatness that sweeps worry away for just a little while.
I recently had one of these glances….

My baby … ok if she knew I was calling her a baby she would probably be upset..haha..because she is the ripe old age of 8…but that’s what you get when your the youngest ūüôā
Last night my little girl who we’ll call (s) was chatting away in the back seat on our way to dance class telling me all about her day and showing off her new powerful words like colossal…. It means very big by the way just in case you didn’t know …. ( thats her goal this term in school to learn more powerful words )….. So there she is chatting away again talking about her day and I decided to ask her about her new seating arrangement because her teacher unbeknown to her decided to sit her next to one of her best friends,now this boy we’ll call him (T) he is a real boys boy likes to play rough and tumble with the rest of the boys ….but since T met S in kindergarten he has had a soft spot for her. Maybe because she looks like a pixie but tackles like pit-bull….haha…
Ok now I’m getting off the mommy moment back to the story at hand…..
So I ask her if she is happy about this new seating arrangement ( which the teacher has already after one afternoon informed me that there seamed to be a lot of chatter) and she proceeds to inform me that she’s not too sure because he likes to talk a LOT…and she told him that if he keeps it up she will have to tell the teacher!
And then she tells me that he is very good friends with another little boy who we’ll call (L) and WE know L quite well he was at her birthday and boy does he have a crush on her, he is one of those boys who will pull the ponytail of the girl he likes, and he has been teasing her mercifully lately ….to the point that she didn’t want to go to school.
We spoke to her teacher and asked if she could do something about it for us.

So back to sitting in the car and driving to dance class…. I then proceeded to ask her if she was still having trouble with L teasing her or if sitting next to T has made it better or worse.
She looked at me a said very straight forward ….. Oh I took care of him!… You did did you! … She informed me that she told him to stop or She would tell Mrs.B the teacher…….

And that was it …..At that moment I was so proud of my baby girl because she didn’t like the way she was being treated so she did the right thing and said no this is not ok I don’t like it so stop or this will be the consequence….

If nothing else I’ve at least taught her this ….a very proud moment for me.

and then right there at that moment I realized the colossal mistake I had made in interfering ….now did I just make everything worse!…is L going to think she told … I send out an e-mail to her teacher that night and she tells me L has been home sick all week and she hasn’t had a chance to talk to him yet ….I took a deep breath and sighed with relief …..

She is still my pixie and will be a pit-bull with those other then her siblings, and this was when I got my glance of her greatness ….what’s to come… She told her best friend to stop talking so she wouldn’t get in trouble and put a stop to the teasing….

And this is how My Life Becomes Me.

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Posted by on November 23, 2011 in life


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My favorite way to procrastinate

My favorite way to procrastinate is to think!
Do you believe that…what a way to procrastinate…to think….sometimes I wonder why because so much thinking could be quite dangerous you know …

sometimes I will think of ways I could be working on what I should be doing.
Sometimes I will be thinking of things I should be thinking about and sometimes I will be thinking of lists I will have to create to stop procrastinating so I can actually do what I’m supposed to do.
Other times I will listen to music ….saying to my self oh! I love this song I’ll get back to work after this one, or I’ll check my e-mail just incase I got something important.

Once a long time ago I got “a round Toit”…. But alas I lost it some time ago and maybe when I get a round Toit again it’ll get done!…. Bit until then I guess I’ll think about making a list of what has to get done.

And this is how My Life Becomes Me ūüôā


Posted by on October 21, 2011 in Choices, life, week post 2011


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Thanks for Giving

In¬†the tradition of giving thanks to those around us on this day I would like to share some of the things I¬†am thankful for…..

  • I am thankful for¬†my mother and father for giving me all they could to help me grow into the women and mother that I am.
  • I am thankful for my partner who has given me 3 of the most beautiful children in the world.
  • I am thankful¬†that my oldest girl has spirit and spunk¬†and the courage to be who she wants to be.
  • I am thankful¬†that my middle child¬†is¬†finding¬†the confidence to become what ever he wishes as he grows in to the man he so wants to become.
  • I am thankful for my youngest for having the perfect blend of spirit and confidence and courage to become the wonderful adult¬†that I know¬†she will become.
  • I am thankful for my¬† family and friends who have stuck by me through all my¬†ups and downs throughout¬†the years.
  • I am thankful that my partners dog may have finely stopped eating my books.
  • I am thankful for being able to make money doing what I enjoy.
  • I am thankful for lessons learned….and lessons that are still to be learned to allow me to grow.
  • I am thankful to those people who have been instrumental in¬†helping me grow over the past year.
  • I am thankful for my sweater¬†that is keeping me warm today as¬†I watch the first snow fall of the year.
  • I am thankful for the pickle ends because they are my favorite when eaten with cheese.
  • I¬†am thankful for the¬†ability to see and¬†appreciate all that I am thankful for.
  • I am thankful for you …..because you chose to stop and read what I have to say.

there are so many other things to be grateful for but I am in the middle of preparing turkey dinner so these are the ones that I will say for now.

I belive that there is always something to be thankful for no matter how rough the road…. you just have to look and once you focus on those little things the bumps in the road seem to fill them selves.

so what are you Thankful for this year?….you don’t have to share them with me if you don’t want to ….but you need to find them and appreciate them for your self because even the little things matter…..when you find all the little things and put them all together they become big things…..don’t you think.

so Thanks for giving to me…….thanks for giving to others…….thanks for giving even just a little of your selves.

and this is how…. My Life Becomes Me!

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Posted by on October 10, 2011 in Uncategorized


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I think….I think Nothing????

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I was sitting quietly one day looking out the window and I was thinking about silence which I was enjoying at that particular moment¬†and this¬†brought me to thinking about why there is silence which brought me to thinking about what the person sitting quietly beside me was thinking about ….

I then proceeded to ask what it was they were thinking of ?….the answer I got was Nothing???…..really?…¬†Nothing?…..I have gotten this answer many times over the years mainly from my partner …..what I don’t get…. is how do you think of nothing how does that happen and if they can think of nothing… why can’t I ?

when I am not talking I am thinking…..thats just how I am…..all the¬†time!!!….. it never shut’s off this thinking thing. something is always going through my head whether its something big or small !!!!……important or silly….its still thinking… least that’s what I thought ?…….I think so much that¬†I even¬†have to¬†think my self to sleep …haha….ok I know it’s weird but hey if I am not completely¬†exhausted the breaks just don’t work!

I can think of an orange and my thinking will make its way to whether I¬†rememberd to shut the shredder off at work yesterday to what the temperature will be tomorrow….lol…..why??? well because one thing always leads to another with me…. it just never ends…. never!!!…. one thing always roll’s into another¬†…sometimes I would love to record one of my conversations with the girls at work …

I thought at one time that if I listened to music I would then be too busy concentrating on what I am listening to, to be able to think of anything else…..boy was I wrong….but¬†I’ll let you in on a little secret I¬†do my best thinking when I’m listening to music…..who would have thought that, right!¬†…..I put in my¬†headphones and I drown out the rest of the world and away I go ….lol….

so¬†now that I have explained how my mind works …isn’t this how everyone’s mind works ??? …..and if¬†so how can you be thinking about nothing then?

Ok well I always figured it was because¬†whoever I was asking didn’t want to share whatever it was they were thinking …that’s what I always thought!!…….its what I do (the thinking thing remember it never stop’s in here!!..) so after I ask and I get the answer “nothing” and I know very well the other person is thinking something you can always see¬†the thought process in the other persons eyes …I wonder if others notice this ? huh or am I just observant …nah others must see how your eyes move when you think…lol…

It then makes me wonder WHY???….why don’t they want to share …what are they hiding ?…or I think why¬†are they¬†too embarrassed to tell me what they are thinking?…do they think I would judge them?….

see how the thinking thing works ……haha….it is really exhausting in here.

so if it’s because you don’t want to share then why are you spending time with me if you don’t want to share what your thinking ….I mean really if I wasn’t interested I never would have asked in the first place…right???…..

I will confess to having done the¬†very same thing and I may even do it again(depending on¬†what my thoughts are)¬†but I now say what is on my mind if I’m asked no matter how silly it may be or sound….and I must say it has brought some funny looks from my partner, one particular time he asked and I was thinking about something quite silly……but if you really don’t want to know then¬†DON’T ASK…lol

so my partner just walked in and asked what I’m doing and I told him I was writing about thinking …….he said Wow …that’s a weird topic??… with¬†his funny look on his face……guess it’s one of those moments …haha

so I do filter what I say depending on who I am talking to because…..well because not EVERYTHING need to be shared with everyone …..but then you may just get it’s just not proper to share right now…lol….you would think that with all this thinking I would have no problems writing … would think!!!

so don’t ask if you don’t want to know ……and for those of you who really do¬†think of nothing pleeeeesssseeee tell me how you do it !!!!!…..because I would love to think of nothing just once ……because as my partner says …my brain must hurt with all this thinking…..and it could use a break …haha

and this is how My Life Becomes Me¬† ūüôā


Posted by on October 3, 2011 in Uncategorized


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Caution!!!!! Comfort Zone

Do you ever notice that even when you want to stretch your mind and grow you still get stuck in you comfort zone ….that unwrapping that blanket is still difficult and you can’t find that opening that you want or even need.

I have really been putting myself to the test this past year….to streach my mind ….my capabilities….I have teetered on the edge a few times…. tripped up over my own feet …. and fallen on my ass…. but every time I pick my self up dust off and write it off as a new learning experience ….I tell myself that it’s something that has stretched my mind just a bit more.

Recently I was away on a training seminar and I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to take myself out of my comfort zone ….during this class they asked questions and for every good question and every good answer you would get a ticket for a door prize ……as always as soon as you put a prize into the equation every one try’s just a little harder ….haha…I had no need for the door prize but the challenge on the other hand I thought to my self this is a great opportunity to test myself.

In the past if questions were asked and if I knew the answer I would wait till I heard the answer and if I did know the answer I would give myself a little pat on the back and tell myself see I did know that answer …but I would always stay silent in the back corner and if I got the question wrong I would once again give myself a little pat on the back because I didn’t know the answer and I didn’t make a fool of myself by trying.

As they asked the questions and people answered, I participated like I have never participated before.I learned that when I get called on and I don’t know the answer I still go as red a tomato and my mind really does go blank when I’m put on the spot and I don’t have time to prepare an answer …haha…. but I didn’t know the answer so I was taught the answer and now I know the answer…and when I knew the answer (and I knew more than I thought I would) I put myself out there to be challenged to be asked out of my little comfort zone to have everyone look at me and hear what I have to say ….I don’t know where this feeling comes from because I remember growing up everyone telling me that I was always trying to be the centre of attention …haha…and here I am as a grown women trying to break out of my corner and move up to the front of the class….because somtimes that is my safe place…just sitting in the back and listening and observing ….sometimes it’s nice to have someone other than myself tell me I’m right ….haha…just because I know how to pat myself on the back doesn’t mean I need to.

so I asked and I answered and I collected I think the most tickets out of our little group and I may not have won the door prize but I think my prize was the best because I am now one step closer to stepping out of the corner …I asked and I learned so much more than I ever would have by staying quiet in the back ….I as someone who has spent most of my working life teaching and training others have always told everyone that there is no such thing as a stupid question….and that day I proved it.

and that is how My Life Becomes Me ūüôā

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Posted by on September 28, 2011 in Change, Choices, life


When are you happiest?

When are you the happiest?
That is today’s question ….. When I first saw this question I though to myself this is an easy one….haha…
Now that I’ve thought about it …not so much …..
There are so many things that can make a person happy and at different times in life it can change, depending on where a person is emotionally will also depend on what can and will make them the happiest.
At one point in my life what made me happiest was being pregnant and not having a miscarriage ….yet today it was having my 8-year-old get herself dressed and ready for school without an argument ….haha… See how much it can change from year to year.
Some days what makes me happiest is not having to be the referee between my children …or even between my partner and my children.
Other days it’s creating an amazing kitchen design that my customer loves.
I think what makes me the happiest is seeing my children confident and happy and ready to conquer the world.

what makes you happy will always change so take your happy moments treasure them all because when you appreciate them all they will all make you the happiest.

That is how My Life Becomes Me….

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Posted by on September 26, 2011 in Uncategorized


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