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Oh Canada…..Day 2

Sometimes I can think of really witty things to keep this going sometimes not so much….haha

Day 2…….I think day 2 wanted to give day one a run for her money!!

Wake up feeling down about the accident…..go for breakfast and relax while we wait for the Jeep to be fixed…I take the kids to the pool again while my partner goes out and tries to fix the lights on his truck and now the lights on the boat.
it’s freezing outside (-)something ridiculous I go out to see if I can help with anything….mention he needs to eat, so he says he will go out to check on the jeep and pick up food on the way back.

He decided to take our dog Bella with him to get her out of the room…..and yes this is the same dog that almost dove to her death in the Mackenzie river the day before, about an hour later my phone rings and I see that it’s my partner…I’m excited maybe the jeep is ready and we can head out today!
I pick up and he starts yelling at me to bring him the truck keys now…..I have to walk to the A&W because the dog has locked him out of the Truck and the Truck is running!…..HAHA….OK he is not finding this so funny so I tell the kids I’ll be back in about 30 min….with food.
I start walking in (-)ridiculous temp to unlock the truck doors….I arrive and he is yelling at the dog to stop jumping around….our food is getting destroyed….and he wonders why the dog doesn’t care….I’m just thinking that this is so not going to make this day any better and hopefully the jeep will be ready soon…..

Nope…..looks like we are staying another night and so far day 2 was not all that great!…..however it did not win over day one I think!
kids are quiet and not bickering and my Partner looks like he is about to blow his top….I try to make light of everything and crack some jokes but no one has a sense of humor today….

New tranny line new day….Jeep will be ready in the morning.
Day 3 here we come!

This is how My Life Becomes Me….

 
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Posted by on November 4, 2013 in Change, Travel

 

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Day 1…..The Departure

Loaded and ready to go!……I however am a coffee addict….an addiction I acknowledge and accept because it’s my last crutch, I only drink alcohol maybe twice a year and I quit smoking 9 years this coming September…and well I like my coffee and I’m OK with not being able to function without it…however our Tim Horton in town does not open till 7 am and my partner will not wait for it to open so my brain can start to function …so away we go!!

6:45 am October 31st 2012 The kids are loaded up its (-20 something)…My partner ,son and dog are in the pick-up. The girls and the EVERYTHING else is in the Jeep with me…the girls can’t even touch the ground with their feet we are so jammed packed…I’m thinking we are a little to jam-packed but I have elbow room and all the sleeping bags and blankets are keeping everything hard from hurting us if anything were to start to fall so all is good.

so off we go as we drive out-of-town and I stare longingly at Tim’s thinking I can make it the 3.5 hours to fort providence to fill up on fuel of all kinds….my brain can work ..I know it can …it’s worth the wait if it means getting a good start home!

I spend the next x amount of hours using up the battery on my iPod listing to music because no radio….no cell…no anything in the middle of nowhere….trying to wake up and enjoy the black morning.

What!!!!oh no I see red lights!!!! can I stop in time… my load is to heavy……swerve around the truck and stop beside him wondering why the heck he stopped ….and was just in time to notice all the Buffalo crossing the road not 3 feet in front of me!!….and then thinking they really do blend in when its dark! As we watch them cross I admired their majestic beauty and I acknowledge that this will be the last time I watch them in their natural habitat, all the while using this time to calm my nerves as I realize I almost killed us!…NEED CAFFEINE!….well maybe not I did just have pretty good reflexes!
Still 2 hours till first pit stop…oh well this was my brains kick start…..I think my brain will work just fine now! ha ha

10:00 am sun is finally up and I think I can smell the coffee from here!…girls have been watching movies and listening to music my oldest is full of chatter and excitement ….and I see it …I smell the coffee I’m almost certain now ..ha ha…we stop get some breakfast and we will need to walk the dog …not the same dog we came with Buster Brown my Aussie passed away last January ….this is my partners new dog Bella a black Lab/husky mix….and she is just a young pup only 1 year and loves to play her favorite games like Eat Mom’s books…and her absolutely favorite game of Catch….but let me explain her rules….

Bella’s Catch Rules:

  • 1: charge through the wall of humans before they get the catch of the leash attached!
  • 2: Run…Run…Run…before said humans can catch you!
  • 3: when You get board Run…Run…Run….really close to said humans and pretend your going to let them catch you!
  • 4: Then Run…Run…Run…away while barking “Run…Run…Run…Catch Me if you CAN!”!
  • 5: and Repeat over and over and over….. until tired!

I must say that however much she loves playing Eat Moms Books she did not get to play that game on this day …however I do believe she did become an expert at Bella’s catch!

almost 4 hours later a raw steak from the restaurant, her favorite snack (an apple)and several almost dives into the Mackenzie River to her death we have 3 happy children a tired puppy and two exhausted parents we head to the ferry crossing for the last time across the River.

so after our excursion with the dog I’m feeling good my partner said he had a bad feeling that something was going to happen when we left this morning so I’m thinking almost losing the dog is the bad feeling all taken care of. Smooth sailing from here on out. Right….right!

guess next stop will have to be High Level because the day is more than half gone and we have to take the youngest trick or treating…off to High Level.

What a long day 1 its been ….15 km out of high level I’m getting excited ..one coffee is not enough and I’m getting hungry.
My oldest would like the pillow I have my arm resting on … throw my phone on the dash lift my arm up and she grabs the pillow as I look over and watch her place her head on the window I look back at the road …..and that’s when I felt it …..a light tug in the back…..

The next thing I know the boat is dragging me into the ditch …..I turned my wheel to try to get it so I can drive back out and not flip and kill us …all the sleeping bags and blankets fall in on my little girl in the back and then we come to a stop with snow spraying up as we get buried from the snow that was dropped the night before! But we are up right and facing the road and the boat almost beside me. My youngest looks up and said why’d we stop? what happened ? why did the stuff fall? and lastly Moomm my movies not over!…

Now I open my door and get out into the knee-high snow to asses the damage and have a break down with out the girls noticing!….my son noticed what happened and my partner stops and pulls over and comes over to start his angry montage at me…..however I don’t know what he was saying, I wasn’t really listening.
I was thanking all the powers that be and the love that keeps me sane that we are all unharmed and looks like undamaged!

within a few min a good Samaritan pulls over to try to pull me out and hooks his chain on my tranny line instead of something solid like the frame …but second time is a charm and we chug along to Canadian tire to get it fixed ….so not completely undamaged now.(Hmmm…Tranny….didn’t I have tranny issues with the U-HAUL on day 1 when we moved TO Yellowknife?…sounds familiar )

looks like we will be staying an extra day in High level! We head to the motel I unload…order dinner
Lets go trick or treating …..partner says I’m grounded….OK you go out in -35 and me and the teens are going swimming then ….see you when you get back!

We are all alive and safe I’m going to remove my stress in the hot tub! (wonder if this one’s a time machine!)

Tomorrow is a New Day!

This is how My Life Becomes me! ūüôā

 
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Posted by on August 12, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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OK Canada…Ready….Set….Go!!

I Figured I should start at the beginning….So I will start with the day My partner decided we could come home for good which is something I truly never believed he would agree to any time soon, and that explained my surprise and why I will never forget that day he made that choice.

He walked into my office¬†in August¬†with a purpose in his walk looked at me an said ” If were going to move it has to be before winter hits…give your notice”

REALLY?…. ok….this is really going to happen ….I waited 2 weeks just to be sure …asked again if we were really doing this, really going home just to be sure

and then gave my 2 months notice…yes 2months…. I¬†wanted to make sure all my orders were complete so the fool who was going to be my replacement wasn’t going to have to deal with my orders because he would have enough headaches with all the work that would pile up on him in a matter of seconds!……I loved my Job but I definitely was not going to miss the stress that came with it. one of my partners issues with my job is he could never understand why I cared so much ….why I couldn’t just give 2 weeks just like everyone else.

my job is part of who I am I could never leave unfinished business to drop on someone else’s lap because then it becomes a mess for someone else to clean up ….and that¬†just isn’t who I am.

so there it is with tears in my eyes (I loved my job and the people I worked for ) I gave my notice went home told my partner¬†….now its time to start packing….start looking for jobs…start looking for a new place to live….and low and behold start looking at my partner in a new way…he is really… really angry now….What… Why?

Oh I’m sorry I didn’t realize you didn’t mean it ….I¬†hadn’t ¬†realized you didn’t think I would quit my job…..and there it is his signature move get me all excited and then suck the fun out of it!…. some times he is so infuriating!…..but the wheels¬†are in motion¬†and the process has started….guess he shouldn’t have said let’s go¬†home if he didn’t really mean it( I even asked again after I wrote my resignation letter and passed¬†it to him to read it)¬†….so now¬†¬†let’s get on with it ….

my notice is in and¬†WE ARE GOING HOME….4 years is a long time when all your family and friends are on the other side of¬†Canada….

I’ve started packing…throwing things out….and looking for work…looking for a new home….last day of work…ok …I’m tired…we want to leave no later than Oct.31st…before the snow and cold really hit!…..While I’m getting ready for the big move …what’s going on with the rest ¬†of the family…well lets see.

My oldest is already packed. Was packed two weeks after we told her…as she says “can’t wait to leave this place!”

My Middle child …not so happy and seeing the sour look on his fathers face is SO NOT HELPING!…..

My youngest says she has mixed feelings….she is sick of the cold but will miss her best friend….but I bribed her with letting her have a cat if the new place is bigger ….I know ..I bribed her to my side..haha¬†¬†….and my partner ? what is he doing during all this …..don’t really know he isn’t talking to me unless its to yell…….and his ability in never answering question’s I ask is really showing…..

However he has informed me that we are not renting a truck or anything for that matter and I can only bring what will fit in the back of our pick up….the jeep…our little trailer and the boat….everything else must stay and we will buy new when we get home….new furniture WOO HOO!

Job interviews lined up…check!…..new home….ugh! need job first they say! …..that’s ok I tell my partner to ask his mom if¬†we can¬†stay with her till we find a place …she’ll be¬†leaving for¬†Florida any ways and her place will be empty…..free house sitter!

Now it’s our last night everything is packed….Halloween costume …check!…next stop Alberta Small town of¬†Manning…should be there¬†just¬†in time for trick or treating!….the youngest …she’s nine….. it’s in line with Birthdays and Christmas as her most important days of the year!…¬†haha…

To wrap this up in¬†a nice little bow…..my partner regrets¬†deciding to move home …but¬†has accepted the fact that its happening….and is still learning to deal with how he feels¬†about it …but has decided to not share these¬†feelings with me other than¬†show anger…..which fuels my 12-year-old¬†sons anger …..which causes anxiety in my 15-year-old¬†girl….and my 9-year-old just doesn’t want to miss¬†Halloween…..and really wants a new cat… since the family cat died 2 years ago after 18 beautiful years with me….so I’m thinking there will be lots¬†of growing pains with this move back home since they have already started…haha

But if we stay on¬†schedule we’ll be¬†back in Hamilton by¬†November 5th ….and not the 2 weeks it took the first time …..

I’m taking all the anger and stress being thrown at me¬†from everyone else and taking lots of deep breaths because once we are home life will go on and being back around family and friends…regular routines again everything will work out fine…..and everyone will adjust.

I’m also thinking life has been bumpy enough the last 2¬†months and¬†that¬†this trip should be smooth sailing……

You know because¬†moves like that don’t happen twice…Right?

And this is how My Life Becomes Me ūüôā

 
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Posted by on August 4, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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Canada again….Really!!

Back when I started¬†this blog I wrote about my move from Ontario to the Northwest Territories and The wonderful growth and experience I gained from such a journey and how life can throw you curve balls and it’s how you practice hitting those balls, learning which ones to swing at and which ones to leave alone and of course¬†ducking when they get too close so¬†life doesn’t knock you out….I believe such experience’s allow¬†for growth.

Well I’ve made this journey once and¬†most people would be¬†figuring that one crazy trip across Canada would be a great learning experience and that TWO such experiences would be non-existing……because¬†that just doesn’t happen…..at least not in the real world.

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Winter Sunrise 9:50 am my last winter in Yellowknife

…..Right?

so the last time I wrote my whole trip in one post ….but this time I’ll break it up into several, just to make sure it isn’t as long and you don’t get board and maybe in all this nonsense just¬†maybe I’ll show you a little of

How My Life becomes Me ūüôā

 
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Posted by on August 2, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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Remember to smile……Because you can!

What makes you smile like nothing else?
I think this is an amazing question don’t you?
I’ve sat on this question for a while now because I wasn’t sure how to answer it, I had so many answers and couldn’t decide which one of the many things that make me smile actually make me smile like nothing else can…..

  • Many things can make me smile, some just little things like laying down to the smell of freshly cleaned sheets right out of the dryer…..
  • The first bite of my favorite dish (when I get it right)¬† haha……
  • When¬†a great song comes on the radio……
  • Watching my kids accomplish¬†something they have worked on…..
  • Seeing the look on my children’s face Christmas Morning because Santa came…..

After I thought about all the things that make me smile ……I realized the one thing that makes me smile like nothing else is the feeling of LOVE …..

The love from another given freely with nothing to gain …..that feeling that you get when you can feel the others love for¬†no other reason than for who you are …….The love you give to another because they are worth it …That is what makes me smile like nothing else can …..

My 8-year-old reminded me of this yesterday morning when she saw that after asking for 3 years in a row for a stuffed Jaguar teddy…..Santa finely came through and although none of his elves could find one anywhere nor could they make one …..Santa hunted down some¬†material¬†that looked as much like a Jaguar as he could and made one just for her …..and it has not left her side since……even though it is the most pitiful looking cat I have ever seen …haha…it probably should have been left to the elves….haha…But Santa worked very long hours on this cat I’m positive of that…..and when she saw it…….. that little spark that was starting to fade came back in her eyes and her belief in Santa was restored¬†….which moved my 2 older children and the magic of the real meaning of Christmas was back ……because its all about the love not the presents…..it’s all about the little things……

and I get the privilege of seeing that kind of love everyday….and every time my children hug me …..every time my¬†I hear my children¬†laugh ……every time I see Dorito the Jag(his new name) haha….get squeezed with love ( I sure hope he makes it through the year…..good thing Mom owns a sewing kit…..haha….

Dorito the Jaguar

This is how My life Becomes Me…..

 
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Posted by on December 26, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

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Thanks for Giving

In¬†the tradition of giving thanks to those around us on this day I would like to share some of the things I¬†am thankful for…..

  • I am thankful for¬†my mother and father for giving me all they could to help me grow into the women and mother that I am.
  • I am thankful for my partner who has given me 3 of the most beautiful children in the world.
  • I am thankful¬†that my oldest girl has spirit and spunk¬†and the courage to be who she wants to be.
  • I am thankful¬†that my middle child¬†is¬†finding¬†the confidence to become what ever he wishes as he grows in to the man he so wants to become.
  • I am thankful for my youngest for having the perfect blend of spirit and confidence and courage to become the wonderful adult¬†that I know¬†she will become.
  • I am thankful for my¬† family and friends who have stuck by me through all my¬†ups and downs throughout¬†the years.
  • I am thankful that my partners dog may have finely stopped eating my books.
  • I am thankful for being able to make money doing what I enjoy.
  • I am thankful for lessons learned….and lessons that are still to be learned to allow me to grow.
  • I am thankful to those people who have been instrumental in¬†helping me grow over the past year.
  • I am thankful for my sweater¬†that is keeping me warm today as¬†I watch the first snow fall of the year.
  • I am thankful for the pickle ends because they are my favorite when eaten with cheese.
  • I¬†am thankful for the¬†ability to see and¬†appreciate all that I am thankful for.
  • I am thankful for you …..because you chose to stop and read what I have to say.

there are so many other things to be grateful for but I am in the middle of preparing turkey dinner so these are the ones that I will say for now.

I belive that there is always something to be thankful for no matter how rough the road…. you just have to look and once you focus on those little things the bumps in the road seem to fill them selves.

so what are you Thankful for this year?….you don’t have to share them with me if you don’t want to ….but you need to find them and appreciate them for your self because even the little things matter…..when you find all the little things and put them all together they become big things…..don’t you think.

so Thanks for giving to me…….thanks for giving to others…….thanks for giving even just a little of your selves.

and this is how…. My Life Becomes Me!

 
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Posted by on October 10, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

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I think….I think Nothing????

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I was sitting quietly one day looking out the window and I was thinking about silence which I was enjoying at that particular moment¬†and this¬†brought me to thinking about why there is silence which brought me to thinking about what the person sitting quietly beside me was thinking about ….

I then proceeded to ask what it was they were thinking of ?….the answer I got was Nothing???…..really?…¬†Nothing?…..I have gotten this answer many times over the years mainly from my partner …..what I don’t get…. is how do you think of nothing how does that happen and if they can think of nothing… why can’t I ?

when I am not talking I am thinking…..thats just how I am…..all the¬†time!!!….. it never shut’s off this thinking thing. something is always going through my head whether its something big or small !!!!……important or silly….its still thinking…..at least that’s what I thought ?…….I think so much that¬†I even¬†have to¬†think my self to sleep …haha….ok I know it’s weird but hey if I am not completely¬†exhausted the breaks just don’t work!

I can think of an orange and my thinking will make its way to whether I¬†rememberd to shut the shredder off at work yesterday to what the temperature will be tomorrow….lol…..why??? well because one thing always leads to another with me…. it just never ends…. never!!!…. one thing always roll’s into another¬†…sometimes I would love to record one of my conversations with the girls at work …..lol

I thought at one time that if I listened to music I would then be too busy concentrating on what I am listening to, to be able to think of anything else…..boy was I wrong….but¬†I’ll let you in on a little secret I¬†do my best thinking when I’m listening to music…..who would have thought that, right!¬†…..I put in my¬†headphones and I drown out the rest of the world and away I go ….lol….

so¬†now that I have explained how my mind works …isn’t this how everyone’s mind works ??? …..and if¬†so how can you be thinking about nothing then?

Ok well I always figured it was because¬†whoever I was asking didn’t want to share whatever it was they were thinking …that’s what I always thought!!…….its what I do (the thinking thing remember it never stop’s in here!!..) so after I ask and I get the answer “nothing” and I know very well the other person is thinking something you can always see¬†the thought process in the other persons eyes …I wonder if others notice this ? huh or am I just observant …nah others must see how your eyes move when you think…lol…

It then makes me wonder WHY???….why don’t they want to share …what are they hiding ?…or I think why¬†are they¬†too embarrassed to tell me what they are thinking?…do they think I would judge them?….

see how the thinking thing works ……haha….it is really exhausting in here.

so if it’s because you don’t want to share then why are you spending time with me if you don’t want to share what your thinking ….I mean really if I wasn’t interested I never would have asked in the first place…right???…..

I will confess to having done the¬†very same thing and I may even do it again(depending on¬†what my thoughts are)¬†but I now say what is on my mind if I’m asked no matter how silly it may be or sound….and I must say it has brought some funny looks from my partner, one particular time he asked and I was thinking about something quite silly…..lol…but if you really don’t want to know then¬†DON’T ASK…lol

so my partner just walked in and asked what I’m doing and I told him I was writing about thinking …….he said Wow …that’s a weird topic??… with¬†his funny look on his face……guess it’s one of those moments …haha

so I do filter what I say depending on who I am talking to because…..well because not EVERYTHING need to be shared with everyone …..but then you may just get it’s just not proper to share right now…lol….you would think that with all this thinking I would have no problems writing …..you would think!!!

so don’t ask if you don’t want to know ……and for those of you who really do¬†think of nothing pleeeeesssseeee tell me how you do it !!!!!…..because I would love to think of nothing just once …..lol…because as my partner says …my brain must hurt with all this thinking…..and it could use a break …haha

and this is how My Life Becomes Me¬† ūüôā

 
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Posted by on October 3, 2011 in Uncategorized

 

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